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January-March Secrets!

Editor’s note:

I’m sorry it has taken me so long to post these (they were submitted in January and February)! I don’t have a good excuse, I’ve just been a little overwhelmed for the past few months for a few reasons and got behind. But as always, I have no intentions of abandoning TerpSecret. As long as one person in the world has a secret to share, I’ll be here.

Also, both of these make me wish I could respond to the people who submitted them. As crazy as my life gets sometimes, I always want to help people who reach out to me. If you don’t have a secret but need advice, I’m here to help.

❤ Sarah


“My ex-girlfriend and I broke up, but we decided to have sex one last time and my condom broke. I didn’t cum and she took plan B. She began bleeding a week later which is 2 weeks before her normal period. I’ve been freaking out every day and have had extreme anxiety. I tried to be there for her, but she abruptly stopped talking to me and won’t return any of my calls.

After this experience, I have come to the conclusion that I never want to have sex again or ever involve myself in a relationship. There is way too much pain and stress associated with it.”


“Every once in a while I’ll do this thing, where I lay in bed all day pretending I’m dead just to see if anyone would notice if I killed myself overnight. I’ve come to the conclusion that my body would have to start to smell before anyone even tried knocking on my door. The longest time was 42 hours. Two days I laid in bed and didn’t make a single sound, didn’t eat or watch TV. Nobody even texted to see where I was. I stayed away from home to see how long it would take someone to notice I was gone. Two weeks until someone tried to get a hold of me. If I died, it would take my family days to realize it.”

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March Secrets!

“I might take a job on the other side of the country just to be close to a girl I’m falling in love with. Oh, and she has a boyfriend. Am I being stupid?”

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“I’m pretty sure all of my friends actually hate me.”

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“I think I’m borderline eating disorder, but I don’t know I could ever admit that to anyone I care about.”

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“I’ve been home for over 24 hours and my family just noticed I was here. And then when they noticed they asked me why I was even there in the first place. Last I checked I lived here too.”

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“My bf gets weird whenever I mention my rehab visit. It was way before we even met, and he’s never even met the drug addict me. But still he gets all quiet. I AM NOT ASHAMED THAT I SOUGHT HELP FOR MY PROBLEM.”

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“My two roommates are so immature. But I don’t mean silly or goofy, I mean the way they handle situations and what their life goals are is so below their age, it’s ridiculous. As much as I love being friends with them, they’re hard to put up with. I feel like they think I’m not fun or interesting, but I think I’m just acting my age.”

August Secrets!

“I am a female.

I have a significant other.

We have sex often… most people think too often.

He doesn’t know that I run a sex blog on tumblr… I feel guilty, but I need somewhere for me to be me without judgment. I do not think he would judge me poorly… but I don’t want him to get upset with anonymous submissions I receive from other guys… and girls too. I don’t enjoy the random submissions, but its nice to know that people out there are comfortable with their bodies and willing to share it with the rest of the world… also that they are just as guilty as me for looking at the scandalous photos I reblog. I wouldn’t ever post photos of myself. I couldn’t do that to my boyfriend… but I still like to run the blog. It’s ok in my eyes to be a little naughty behind closed doors.”

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“If you consider me your own daughter, why don’t you treat me like one of your REAL kids? Even your wife has pointed out that I don’t get the same ‘preferential’ treatment. Your kids get cars paid for them, I’m told I have to pay for it myself. You can pay for my sister’s apartment, but you talk to me about how much you want to charge me for living in you basement? When do I get to be your daughter, dad? When did you decide I wasn’t?”

July Secrets!

“All I can say is I was just trying to keep the peace. And all you wanted to do was blame me for everything instead of actually confronting the right people about how you felt. And now here we are… with you telling me we can no longer be friends because I was trying to include you. So now I am here… feeling hurt and confused.”

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“Dear Mom,

I hate you. I know we are like “BFF’s 4-Eva” or whatever you want to call it, but I think you are the most immature and selfish middle-aged woman I have ever met. You weren’t supposed to be my friend, you were supposed to be my mother. Now that I’m in my 20s you want to try to have a say in what I do? You want to talk to me about how “you’re my mother and you worry”? You think I believe that you’re on the straight and narrow now? You’re a horrible liar, you always have been, but I’m not. That’s why I can smile and laugh when I see your face. That’s why I can tell you I love you. But I’ll lie till the day you die, make you feel like you have that daughter you always thought you had. But sorry mom, you killed that girl a long time ago.”

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“I’ve tried to kill myself multiple times. It kills me that my family doesn’t know. It kills me that my sorority sisters don’t know. But probably more than anything, it kills me that of the couple of people that know, only one is someone who hasn’t broken my heart.”

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“I know I harp on this subject every year, but 7 years ago today, I sliced my Achilles tendon on my right ankle- straight up in 2. Cast for 2 months, walking boot for 1, physical therapy for 3, and I still occasionally/rarely walk funny because of it (mini limp/gimp). It just makes me wonder what I could have done in life if it weren’t for that major setback. Truly thankful for the small things in life.”

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“I really like the way things are going between us, you seem to be perfect and your so sweet. However, when you finally hear my story, my history….I doubt you’ll stick around.”

June Secrets!

“You say the ship set sail on us… I’ve accepted it. If you’re happy, I’m happy. But, if that ship starts to sink, I will swim to you and save you. But don’t wait till you’re almost drowning to ask for help.”

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“One of my really good friends had committed suicide 2 years ago this July.

My really good friend was also my ex boyfriend. Me & him had a huge fight a few months before he ended his life over me & my current boyfriend.

To be honest, I still love him and everyday I wish I told him what I should have so long ago. Rest in the sweetest peace my love.”

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“One of my friends died of a heroin overdose and i feel bad that i wasn’t there for her. But that’s not the secret, the secret is that i heard about if from my abusive, cheating ex and all i wanted to do was tell him that he deserved to die that way, scared and alone.

I quit my job because i was constantly being harassed and decided that quitting was the better way than getting other people fired.

I wish my sister was dead… she had a cancer scare a couple of months ago and recently I told my mom I wish it had been true. She asked if it was because I believed it would teach her humility. No, it is because she is an evil person who since the day she turned 14, she is 23 now she has never done anything kind for someone unless there was some self-serving purpose behind it. In all honesty I just wanted to watch her suffer like I have for years. She tortured me for years all the way through my adolescence including telling me to kill myself. When I eventually, years later tried to talk to her about the multiple times I did try. Her response: I don’t want all that drama… I honestly wish that she would die horrifically. I now have to move because her and her family just moved in with us. It’s a small house and in the last two days I’ve been medicated out of my mind just so I can deal with her. She is constantly threatening me and accusing me of things I don’t do. Calling me worthless and lazy because I quit my job. Today she even pulled the “what bills do you pay” card… Let’s see…. the electric my car payment the heating deposit. The only bills I don’t pay are divided up between my parents who asked me to live with them, and those are just the rent, food and car insurance. I’ve made it through a course in college I only took to make my abusive ex happy and now that I want to go back for real all she has to say is be realistic. She cheated on the father of her daughter and only had the baby to keep him around. She is a sociopath. She needs to be hit by a meteor or struck by lightning. I was in a horrific car accident two years ago that left me with ptsd. It was not my fault and whenever she feels like it she’s all… don’t let her borrow your car… you know what happened last time.

That is all.”

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“I want to break up with you because our relationship is flat, I’m bored and want to date other girls. No matter what I say you’re going to make me feel like an asshole, but keep trying to bring me back. Sure, maybe it is all my fault, but I accept that. Why can’t you just let me go?”