July Secrets!

“Lately I keep having recurring dreams of being back at Maryland. It’s been 3 years since I graduated. I think I feel a bit of regret of how I did things. I didn’t do too well especially in the beginning. I had undiagnosed PTSD from having cancer as a child along with crippling social anxiety, ADD, plus other problems from having cancer. I eventually got help. While it’s been tough but I’m as happy and productive as I’ve ever been. I’m now a masters student at Johns Hopkins. I just wanna say don’t be afraid to get help. Stigmas of mental illness are slowly but surely changing. Hopefully one day I don’t have to feel the need to say this as a secret. As always have a nice day and GO TERPS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

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“At first this hurt, but at least now I know who my real friends are.”

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“I’ve been without my ex for two years, moved on with a new guy totally happy. I got stuck in a conversation with my ex’s mom. He misses me. He knows he messed up. He loves me still. Honestly, I thought I was over him, hearing he wants me still makes me take two leaps backwards. Do I still love you? I don’t know.”

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May Secrets!

We all have secrets, so unleash yours.

We all have secrets, so unleash yours.

“I have an eating disorder. I thought I was over it, I used to be bulimic to the point that I’d be nauseous if I ate, and then it transformed to Anorexia when it came to much to handle. My friend had me start smoking weed, it made me hungry and not give a fuck. I’ve been smoking since I was 16, and I thought I was over my disorder. The past few days I have not smoked, I can not eat and when I try to I feel like I’m going to throw up until I finally just made myself. I realize today that I never got over it, I masked the symptoms, but I never got to the root of the issue. The real problem is I hate myself.”

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“I drink at work. On the job. My coffee always has Jamison. My coke always has rum. And the saddest part, is I’m so functional no one notices.”

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“I never feel like I’m good enough in anything I do. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t try so I have an excuse afterwards. It makes me settle and I am tired of settling, but I’m stuck with this habit of self-sabotage.”

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“I keep myself awake at night envisioning what it would be like to get in fights with people I don’t like.”

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“I resent my parents for not doing things right the first time. They love me and I love them, but they screwed up my life.”

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“I have an eating disorder.
Finally realizing this after the third doctor has told me to see someone.
I fight it though sometimes I find myself having gone a day or two having eaten nothing but a cup of coffee I don’t need help.
I’ve figured it out so far and I’m working on it.
I can be strong.
sometimes…”

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“I hate the way I act when I drink because I know everyone else hates it to, so when my friends ask me to go out I make excuses just to avoid being talked about behind my back.”

April Secrets!

Anyone ever get the feeling of:

‘Hey mom and dad I wanna do these great things!’
-me

‘Well that’s great, we support you. But you shouldnt do that, you should do this.’
-parents

Apparently I can’t live my dreams, I have to live the dreams they want me to dream. I also think it’s horse-shit.

#forevertheblacksheep”

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“I pretend that I love what I’m doing but I really just do it all to prove a point.”

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My biological dad pretty much made it apparent that he didn’t think I would amount to anything and was a complete failure because I smoked weed. (Which is only because he smokes weed and never did anything). He kicked me out a longtime ago, and he doesn’t even know this but I’m in college again. I’m an anthropology major. I plan to get my masters. I have STRAIGHT A’S. And before every test I get as high as possible. In 3 out of 4 of my classes I have the best grade. Am I a failure still, daddy?”

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I don’t greet people first because I don’t want to exist.”

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“After three months of applying and getting rejected, I finally got a job offer. Now, I don’t feel like I deserve it.”

March Secrets!

“I might take a job on the other side of the country just to be close to a girl I’m falling in love with. Oh, and she has a boyfriend. Am I being stupid?”

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“I’m pretty sure all of my friends actually hate me.”

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“I think I’m borderline eating disorder, but I don’t know I could ever admit that to anyone I care about.”

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“I’ve been home for over 24 hours and my family just noticed I was here. And then when they noticed they asked me why I was even there in the first place. Last I checked I lived here too.”

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“My bf gets weird whenever I mention my rehab visit. It was way before we even met, and he’s never even met the drug addict me. But still he gets all quiet. I AM NOT ASHAMED THAT I SOUGHT HELP FOR MY PROBLEM.”

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“My two roommates are so immature. But I don’t mean silly or goofy, I mean the way they handle situations and what their life goals are is so below their age, it’s ridiculous. As much as I love being friends with them, they’re hard to put up with. I feel like they think I’m not fun or interesting, but I think I’m just acting my age.”

February Secrets!

“I was raped a few years ago and I’ve never told my current boyfriend that. I always kept it hidden, even from myself. But then last night while I was in bed with my boyfriend, all of the memories came flooding back to me and it kept all of me from bursting into tears. I don’t know where that came from or why it happened, but I hope I doesn’t happen again.”

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“I have the perfect girlfriend. Without a shadow of a doubt. I have concluded that regardless of who I date/ form a relationship with, that I will never be happy. Fuck if i know why either. So here’s to my liver…*cling*…because fuck it, I Quit. Here’s to she is so better than I deserve. By far. Here’s to me fucking it up at some point, just wait for it. Here’s to back to the single life of downward spiraling into loneliness. I can’t win. Ever. Here’s to alcohol. Cheers!”

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“I use guys to feel good about myself. Meaning if a guy doesn’t like me i feel worthless and my self-esteem plummets, and if a guy is into me i feel happy and content with myself. I currently feel like a worthless piece of shit because the guy I was talking to ended it out of the blue. I need to figure out how to find happiness within myself instead of relying on men but I don’t know how. That seems impossible.”