June Secrets!

“You don’t care. So I don’t eat.”

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“We’ve met twice, hooked up once, and I think you’re the type of person I’ve always wanted to be with. I hope you like me the same way.”

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“I have 2 jobs and I loathe both of them. I know I should be lucky to even have a job, but they both make me feel extremely unhappy. I want to quit both and then find something I love. I’m scared if I don’t make changes in my life now then I’ll be stuck for the rest of life doing things that make me unhappy.”

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“If you’re reading this, you aren’t alone! I care about you. No matter who you are, I’m cheering for you. I know you can do it! Have a great day! <3”

Thanks for the post! I LOVE seeing things like this. I go to the best school in the world, I’m convinced. ❤

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“I like you. I don’t want to fuck this up.”

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“I’m sick of being everyones anchor. I’m sick of waking up appx 6-8 times a night answering a text message about someones problems.  I really don’t mind, but A) I need sleep too, B) can’t it wait till morning, C) SHUT UP YOU BROKEN RECORD. All I get is “my boyfriend did blahblahblah” or “that dumb bitch blahblahblah.” That kinda this is stuff that can wait until morning, hence why now I silence my phone at night. Last night, 18 text messages from 8 people. Problem with that is what if someone actually needs me. Its june, I’ve talked 2 people out of potential suicide attempts. I am happy to help, don’t get me wrong. But seriously, if you have that many problems, go seek professional help. I also wouldn’t mind continuing listening to their bitching, if they listened to the advice I gave them. “I told you so” is etched into my quick texts on my phone.

Ok so me helping is all fine and dandy. But what about if I’m having a shit day. EVERYONE is like “yeah. contact me whenever.”  Ok so when I do I get no response. Ever. Fair? I don’t think so. So where does the advice giver go to get help. Nowhere. I’m sick of helping and getting no support. I’m done.”

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“I’m going to be a sophomore, and I really like my girlfriend. Sometimes I envision spending the rest of my life with her and I’m OK with that. But then sometimes I think about all of the other opportunities I could missing out on. I’m pretty good looking and I know I could do much better physically, but she loves me to death and I would never purposely do anything to hurt her. Like what if there is a beautiful, smart girl out there that will love me just as much?”

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“So close every time, and we never happened. Missed you by a month, a week, a day. Story of my life…bad timing. Now I can only see you appx once a year (the way the trend is going). You know I adore you, you know i’d do anything for you, you know i’d be there for you in a heart beat. with my driving, distance is only a minor issue. Are we ever going to be together? My heart breaks when i say this : No. Why? Because I believe we both are too scared to risk losing what we have now if something somehow wet wrong. I would love for you to be my girlfriend. I’d marry you one day if I could. If my current girlfriend doesn’t work out, i’ll wait for you, forever, I promise. Our friendship and this feeling I have has been sometime in the making. You know my thoughts and feelings, I just wished you shared them =(.”

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“You don’t miss me, but I would do almost anything to have you back.”

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“I secretly miss being on UMD’s campus. There, said it!”

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“I once read there were “Nice” guys and honestly nice guys. He is the latter. I know he likes me, and I feel like I’m leading him on. It’s been a year since he told me, 18 months since he fell for me, and I can’t bring myself to stop letting him walk me home. Some days I just want to use him to fill some intimacy void in my life, and when I realize that I hate myself more than ever. I really am just a terribly selfish person. I wish he could move on and find someone who could make him happy, because I know I never could.”

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“I was finally comfortable with who I was. I was finally an ex drug addict who could drink a couple glasses of wine with the rest of the family. And then when it was over, you singled me out and made me out to be an alcoholic. I thought we were having fun together. Thank you, for destroying what faith I had in myself. Fuck sobriety, if people don’t believe in me why should I?”

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“So last night I was in the bathroom taking a piss when I realized I was in bed dreaming about taking a piss, but I was physically taking a piss.
I fucking wet the bed.
I’m 20 fucking years old.
Fuck that’s embarrassing.”

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“My boyfriend is such an ass sometimes. I want to punch him in the face.”

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“To the person who said they felt like everyone except them thought they we perfect. I think you’re my twin (haha). I know its hard, but people will still care about you if you don’t do everything right. If you can find someone to talk to it helps.”

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“I’m in love with one girl who’s not my girlfriend, and I don’t care! I can’t breakup with my dead-beat girlfriend (I know I sound terrible) because I’d feel like a jerk. So this other young woman is perfect, reality says we’d never make it. Challenge excepted! BRING IT ON!!!”

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“You can go F*** yourself ’cause I’ve stopped caring.”

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“I love you more than I ever imagined being capable of. Yet I know, despite all the barrier’s I’ve broken down, there will be parts of your life I’ll never see, parts of who you are I’ll never know and there will always be a part of your heart I could never reach. You’ve know heartaches and you’ve known pain, you’ve learned to love with your heart shielded. I’ve been shut-out. All I can do is keep on loving you, and hope that someday you’ll realize that I’m worth loving with all your heart, that I would still love you despite all your mistakes and all your flaws, all your pains and all your hurt, that you would realize that I already love you for everything you are.”

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“I miss the past. I miss it so much sometimes I want to cry but i can’t because all this shit makes me numb. everything was easy, everything was normal, there were possibilities and opportunities for a normal life, for happiness. now everything is all fucked up, everything is hard, everything is a fight or a problem or a tragedy. I would kill for normal. Drama is entertaining when it’s someone else’s, problems are easier to solve when they’re someone else’s. these make for interesting, but they certainly don’t make for easier. I want boring, I want normal, I want something, anything that my life isn’t. I want something that is mine, that I’ve made for myself, something that fate hasn’t decided or ruined for me.”

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“We hooked up while we were dating other people. We told our significant others and we were forgiven. We hooked up again, we didn’t tell anyone. We slept together, we didn’t tell anyone. We spoke on the phone every night and secretly met up for over half a year. Now we’re both single and we rarely talk. Now you’re seeing someone else. I am immoral and I deserve the loneliness.”

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